Thinking

I dont think I can repair the damage done on my hair. Not caring for it for months pretty much deminishes the chances of ever have silky healthy hair again. I combed one side but the other side doesn't deserve any work or pain. I think I'm just going to cut it I don't deserve long luscious hair if I can't take care of it. 

I Bought some "value beads" for 3 bucks to make a chain for my new camera. I think I love them now, I'm not sure what else I can bead without seeming like a cat lady or 5 year old me.

I bought some really neat fabric. Its funny because I chose each print exclusively for it's own look without considering the others and they all came together matching and looking well together. I am making printed shirts and a quilt for david.

oh, i hate you

I feel angry and confused again. about where i am where im going about u about me. What else is new? I'm getting use to feeling like this. I use to be so happy alone not caring about anyone but my work and growth. 

I developed a roll of film and they didnt come out very  clear but i like them. I may make something out of them besides the study of time and life.

now that i think about the words time and life, 3 years at smfa dosen't look so bad.

more writings

i am not affiliated with any group 

i am alone 

i have no experience

update:

bf :gone to nyc
me :here alone nothing to do
me :missing him feeling like i knew id feel

me: should be doing work art something

me: new camera
me :new bags
me: lonely

me: want david
me: gonna go crazy without him

I remember 2 summers ago David left miami for new york and i cried for weeks because i was so in love and eventually we broke up. And now it's happening again, hes leaving for new york and im staying here and then we are not going to meet again for a while. I feel emotional today about it because im back in miami in the same place doign the same things with the same weather.

I woke up in the middle of the night with back and stomach pain chills and nausea and couldnt get out of bed until 3pm terrible emotional day. Im okay now it was just my period. I hate talking about periods. whatevur

heath cliff

This song brings back the weirdest memories of fall semester in nyc. I can't help but feel the same way emotionally when i listen to kate bush, i hate that. I can just remember my stomach flipping.

I am feeling much lighter about the idea of transitioning my confused life in nyc to being in boston. I can take paper making which is really exciting since I've wanted to do that for a long time and electronic sculpture classes :) :) :) which is even more .i dont want to be let down by unmotivated lazy classmates though, i hear thats how it works over there. I also want to tattoo on my body "architecture grad school" because I dont want to get lost and forget what i have learned in nyc// or what I learned I wanted in nyc. I hope SMFA dosen't ruin that plan for me or the chances of getting in to Harvard arch school (aye).

I also really want to make pancakes but we never have baking soda :( because my mom is cuban and cubans dont buy things needed for baking they just buy flour and eggs.

ALSO: if anyone knows someone that needs a roomate in boston.. I still dont have a place to live.

Back

These are some works ive done that have been document, alot havent been.

some old work i found on the way:

Im back on here i guess it's been a while, I helped david move into his new apartment in NYC and spent two weeks there with him. Now we're both back in Miami. I have a lot of work I didn't get to update on my damn blog alot got lost in nyc which is really depressing but whatever I try not to get attached. So here is some work: